Kun and Phoung

After many stressful days at Thailand, and many careful days in cambodia. Finally, today is the result day. I went to do blood day in the morning. 4 PM i ask my cousin to pick up the result. open the envelop, i don’t understand what is the result mean. i call to my friend who is doctor. she said the result is negative. my tear start to drop. this is the moment that i feel how to lose something in life. i always hope and believe that i will be success. however, it is not. i suddenly cry so hard in the bathroom alone. i try to claim myself, cause there are a lot of people still waiting for me get payment outside. i come out with no feeling. really want to work end soon, and please get out of my office. my husband come, i angry with him about work. he ask what’s happen? i hug him and cry. i said negative. he try to comfort me by saying it’s not our kid, so it’s won’t stay. I’m really sad. i e-mail to ask the doctor, cause i want to know the reason why. he said the embryo is grand AA. he make me believe that i will be success. it break my heart to know about the result. ok, let think like my husband said. if it’s us, it will stay. i wish to have a good news for my husband birthday. but i can’t do it 🙁

today is the day i have to transfer my egg. the transfer time is 1:30PM. this morning i spend the whole morning looking for the hotel to stay. first i decide to stay in hospital. after one night in hospital, i feel uncomfortable. i hurt all my body when i get up. I visit three hotels. 5 star, 4 star, and 3 star. finally i get the 3 star. hehe… 5 star is too expensive, and i cannot enjoy the facilities over there. 4 star the price is ok, but the staff is unfriendly, so i decide to get the 3 start around by the malls. so my aunt can walk around. she don’t have to stay in the hotel all day like me. the time is come. i have to pee before 1 PM after that i cannot pee until the process is finish. at 1: 30PM the nurse come to take me at my room. they give me to change the clothes, then it’s time to sit on wheelchair again. hehe…. they push me to other room which i have to put on the special trouser. then they bring me to the transfer room. i have to lay down half hour in order to wait for my doctor to come. the nurse check my belly 2 times make sure i have enough water in my belly. hehe… everything is good, expect i have to wait the doctor with nervous feeling. 2: 10 PM the nurse come and told me the doctor late another 20 min. it’s no choice to compliant anything. then she come back again told me the doctor is here, so she start prepare the place. now it’s time to transfer. the doctor come to the room. he told me that the result of my blood test yesterday is good. the nurse call my name to make sure the egg is mine. there is the TV show me how the nurse collect my egg. it’s so quick to transfer. i can say 2 minutes. after that they give me lay down. i am really want to pee, but i am afraid that it doesn’t good for me. so i try to force not to pee. i lay down on the bed until 3: 45PM, so i call the nurse, cause i am really want to pee. the nurse say that i can go now. they bring me to change the clothes and i am ready to go to the hotel. start from now on, i have to act everything slowly. better lay down on the bed, not to walk too much. eat and drink carefully. I hope i will success this time 🙂