Category: My Kids and Me

today I will get the result of my transfer. I feel so nervous. Waiting a few hours is like a few years. I can’t wait to hear it. My heart is beat fast. My brain thinking about the result. My mind pray for positive one. They call my name to see the doctor. The doctor said the result is positive. I am so happy. I don’t know what to say and ask. However, the doctor say I cannot happy for now. I have to wAit another 10 days to see whether the baby has heart or not. So it means another step to wait. I am so happy sine the first step is success. My hand is shanking , and I don’t know why it becomes like this. Properly I am over happy. 

It’s time to say bye bye to Thailand. I rest enough in bed. Thank my two aunts for accompany me. 

11:00 AM the nurse come to take me at my room. She give me drink one bottle of water. The doctor nearly come, I feel I have diarrhea. I can’t control it. So they give me to go restroom. Then all the water gone from my belly. After coming back, the nurse give me drink hot tea. The doctor come, the transfer embryo is process. This time I put two embryos. After finish , they push me to rest at other room. My belly full of water, I am really want to pee. It’s really 30 min after transfer. Normally, they give 1 hour to rest on the bed. I want to pee, so they put bedpan. However, I can’t pee in bedpan. He he … So the nurse give me walk to restroom. What a release after done. But I feel I shouldn’t walk. I feel afraid of losing my embryo . I try to ask the nurse whether it is ok to walk before one hour? I stay on bed in the hospital until 3 PM. Then they bring me to my bedroom. I rest on the bed all day except going to restroom. Not just today, all day until the 4 Nov 🙁

This is my second time transfer embryo at Thailand. I hope I will success this time. Cause it’s time to have a kid. I pray to all my ancestors to help me to success this time 🙂

After many stressful days at Thailand, and many careful days in cambodia. Finally, today is the result day. I went to do blood day in the morning. 4 PM i ask my cousin to pick up the result. open the envelop, i don’t understand what is the result mean. i call to my friend who is doctor. she said the result is negative. my tear start to drop. this is the moment that i feel how to lose something in life. i always hope and believe that i will be success. however, it is not. i suddenly cry so hard in the bathroom alone. i try to claim myself, cause there are a lot of people still waiting for me get payment outside. i come out with no feeling. really want to work end soon, and please get out of my office. my husband come, i angry with him about work. he ask what’s happen? i hug him and cry. i said negative. he try to comfort me by saying it’s not our kid, so it’s won’t stay. I’m really sad. i e-mail to ask the doctor, cause i want to know the reason why. he said the embryo is grand AA. he make me believe that i will be success. it break my heart to know about the result. ok, let think like my husband said. if it’s us, it will stay. i wish to have a good news for my husband birthday. but i can’t do it 🙁

today is the day i have to transfer my egg. the transfer time is 1:30PM. this morning i spend the whole morning looking for the hotel to stay. first i decide to stay in hospital. after one night in hospital, i feel uncomfortable. i hurt all my body when i get up. I visit three hotels. 5 star, 4 star, and 3 star. finally i get the 3 star. hehe… 5 star is too expensive, and i cannot enjoy the facilities over there. 4 star the price is ok, but the staff is unfriendly, so i decide to get the 3 start around by the malls. so my aunt can walk around. she don’t have to stay in the hotel all day like me. the time is come. i have to pee before 1 PM after that i cannot pee until the process is finish. at 1: 30PM the nurse come to take me at my room. they give me to change the clothes, then it’s time to sit on wheelchair again. hehe…. they push me to other room which i have to put on the special trouser. then they bring me to the transfer room. i have to lay down half hour in order to wait for my doctor to come. the nurse check my belly 2 times make sure i have enough water in my belly. hehe… everything is good, expect i have to wait the doctor with nervous feeling. 2: 10 PM the nurse come and told me the doctor late another 20 min. it’s no choice to compliant anything. then she come back again told me the doctor is here, so she start prepare the place. now it’s time to transfer. the doctor come to the room. he told me that the result of my blood test yesterday is good. the nurse call my name to make sure the egg is mine. there is the TV show me how the nurse collect my egg. it’s so quick to transfer. i can say 2 minutes. after that they give me lay down. i am really want to pee, but i am afraid that it doesn’t good for me. so i try to force not to pee. i lay down on the bed until 3: 45PM, so i call the nurse, cause i am really want to pee. the nurse say that i can go now. they bring me to change the clothes and i am ready to go to the hotel. start from now on, i have to act everything slowly. better lay down on the bed, not to walk too much. eat and drink carefully. I hope i will success this time 🙂

We go to see chin sen for knowing about which date is the best to delivery the kid. he give us these few date. now i miss Sep already. planing to get this Apirl. hopefully it’s successful 🙂

I know everyone is waiting for our good news. everyone is waiting how my baby look like. now we decide to delay again. we take a week to decide whether we should have kid right away after collection the eggs or not? but after we rethink again and again. time is not arrive yet. we still have too much work to take care. i have to train my boss daughter learn how to work, how to control $$$ and train someone to take care of my work when i am absence. so we decide to delay until next year. we suppose to have baby this year on Sep, and now we delay until April next year. i know we should have kid now, cause i am going to be 30 a few months later. but my husband is like that. he want to help my boss across this hard work this year.

I know what we decide is right. baby is start from our love, so when we decide to have. it means we are ready for it 🙂

actually i get 17 eggs on the collection day. after a few days, the doctor e-mail to me said that i have only 8 eggs. he ask is it very important to me to select the gender. actually, i want to select gender cause i think i don’t want too many kids. the doctor select gender cycle might risk alot of eggs as i don’t have many eggs. he would not recommend. so i decide to cancel the cycle. finally, i got only 5 eggs good 😉

It’s time to collect the eggs. No foods from 6 AM until finish. I change the clothes around 10 AM, and i go to sleep on the bed in one room. there are many girl in that room. they are the same like me. i feel so nervous, afraid and scare. i don’t now how to describe my feeling at that time. i am talking to one Thai girl who come to collect eggs as well. she is older than me and he age is the problem for her. she also the first time as well. we are share the feeling together. suddenly, the nurse come and said it’s time for her. they push her bed go into the other room. so i try to control the feeling of being nervous. a few minutes later, it’s my turn. they push me into a room which look like operation room in the movie. I feel super nervous. seeing all the stuffs around me and many nurses. my tear is drop down. i told one old nurse that i am  so nervous. she try to comfort me. i see my doctor come in. seeing his face, i just told him. i am so nervous and please help me. suddenly, i didn’t remember anything. when i wake up, i am in other room. I meet those girls who i meet before i am go into that room. it’s mean it is finish. i am feel so happy. hearing all the sound of people walking in and out, i am close my eyes and try to rest. i see one by one leaving the room. only me the last one, so i open my eyes. the nurse ask me is it ok? i said ok. the nurse give me something to eat (one cookie and one juice). then i left the room to see my translator. when we done with all the paper at the lobby of hospital. it’s time to go back airport. they give me sit on the wheelchair. this is my first time to sit on it. feeling old? or feeling easy? hehe…. i think i feel priority. lolz… when i am arrive home, my mom and my husband blame me not to ask someone accompany. hehe… if i know that scaring i would like to ask. hehe…

this is how people want to get kid? hehe…

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