Category: My Kids and Me

After come back from thailand, I didn’t go out. Just only stay at home and take medicine regularly. Finally the bleeding is gone a few days later. Now I am a happy pregnant woman again.

It’s time to meet doctor again, and also it’s time to see my little two boys😍

This time we also bring my parents in law come to check up. I ask someone to accompany them go to another hospital for genaral check up. Me and my husband go to meet my doctor for ultrasound.

Arrive hosptial, waiting to meet doctor. First of all everything is perfect. Doctor said my babies boy are healthy and everything going well. I am so happy. After finish with doctor, I went to bathroom. I didn’t realize I am bleeding until I use itssue to swipe it. I feel very nervous and I come back ask to see doctor again. Doctor check he said he saw very little blood. He said maybe this is the first time I am pregnant and I have two kids. My kids might kick me and I need to cut down my activity. Actually, I don’t know how to cut down activities since I never go somewhere far. I am very careful every moment that I am pregnant. I am so worry about the bleeding, but my doctor said it is ok. He add one more medicine for me. And I need to come back tomorrow before I am go back home. So I went back to hotel and rest.

When my parents in law are finish we check up, we went to have something to eat at central world. Then come back to rest again. I didn’t tell them that I am bleeding, cause I am afraid they are worry.

Tonight i ask my parent in law to go up 55 floor to eat something, but they said they are tired, and not hungry. So we end up eating just two of us. 

Morning come before we flight back. I pray in my heart hopefully everything is ok. I tell my two babies boy have to be strong with me.

After doctor checking, he said it is fine. No need to worry. Just take the medicine and rest more. so I am a bit happy now. 

my husband always take care of me when I am pregnant. He does thing that he never done before like holding wife bag, helping with wear the shoes, bring me to toilets, and i can ask him to do anything. He he … this is the precious time for me. He is so cute sometime. Whenever I ask him to do something, he alway do and reply back អស់ឆ្អឹងម៉ង់

my husband is not like other husband. He never holding my bag go around. This is very big deal for him, but when I am pregnant, he alway help me. If I know having kids feel like a princess like that, I will get a kid s for a long time. 

this time is a important checking as my doctor told me. I have to meet specialist for ultrasound checking. The specialist will look at my both babies and find out if something wrong. I feel a bit nervous, but my husband alway support me. He said we never do something bad, so our babies will be good. Specialist screen all the part of the babies. Everything is going very well. I can see my babies moving on the monitor. We both happy to see his hands, his foot, his a little face. Everything is good as specialist told us. We both very happy. Then I go to meet my genaral doctor. Today I also test the sugar on me, take the blood for chromosome test and also get flu shot as well. Many thing have to be done today.

At least I got a good news from first ultrasound go back, and the rest need to wait the result next two weeks.

My little two princes 

his little hand

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My third chance transfer embryo. I hope God see me this time and he will help me to success what I want. Afternoon come, they change my sechdule one hour ahead, so I am yet prepare myself. When I am transfer room. They give me drink a bottle of water and plus a glass. I listen to all the person who success before me and follow their advice. And this time I hope it will work for me. The doctor come around two o’clock. The embryo process about 5 minutes. Everything is going well. I am listen to all my favorite song. It makes me forget about pee. It works well. Finally I am arrive my room. Staying on the bed all day. Not one day but nine days. He he …. This is a long vacation I guess.

again and again…. The same result. I already prepare my mind not to cry or hurt my feeling. Only keep claim and try again.

I am sorry honey, we have to try again ;))

today is operation day. I am so nervous. Why people afraid like me alway meet this bad thing? I am afraid injection and my hand no សសៃ at all. That is funny. My husband give me support thought viber. He said ស៊ូស៊ូអូនសំលាញ់ I love you big big. Seeing those words, my tear cannot stop dropping. I am really want to give him positive result. But no this time honey. The time come, Taking me to operation room like taking me to the darking place. I can’t control my tear at all. My body keep shaking non stop. All the nurse are comfort to me. One of the nurse try to injection me. It like 4 times to get the right place, then I don’t know anything. After one hour and half, I wake up in another room. Seeing two nurse around, and they are chit chat. I can’t open my eyes, but my ear just hear the sound of them. About another 20 minutes, they wake me up said that I am done. I can go to change my clothes then go to meet doctor. Seeing my new doctor, hopefully she will give me positive this time. She give me 3 months medicine for recover everything then come to meet her again. 

RIP my baby

Good bye Thailand. See you next 3 months. 

i alway hope there is a miracle in this world, and It might happen to me someday I need it. But no. It is just a dream. Today checking again for confirm with doctor, and the result is negative. I think I already prepare my mine for this negative result, but no way. I can’t do it. My tear drop down. I can’t be strong as I suppose to do. I don’t know what to respond to everyone around me. The answer No three times already. I know everyone still support by saying it is ok. There still have chance next time. I alway hope my next time is positive. Seeing my husband play with the kids, my heart is broken into piece. 

Sorry I can’t make it again 🙁 

I am going to Thailand alone to listen my result. I always hope it must be a positive result. Today I ask my translator to buy me some stuffs for praying in front of hospital. Feeling hopeful. After finish praying in front of hospital, it time to wait the doctor. A long wait the doctor. Finally my turn have come. I feel so nervous to see the doctor. He open the result. I know it is negative. When I saw the number I can guess. My tear start falling down. I think I didn’t prepare my mind that’s why I can’t control my tear. I ask the result why. The doctor answer the same answer as the first time I fail. I am really get mad with doctor. I alway hope it is easy to get one. Actually, it is not. I wish my husband was next to me. He aways say thing when I am in hard time. I am really upset with this result. Don’t know what to answer to everyone, especially my husband and parents in law. 

Just prepare my mind like my husband if it is us, it’s us.