Author: phoung

After many stressful days at Thailand, and many careful days in cambodia. Finally, today is the result day. I went to do blood day in the morning. 4 PM i ask my cousin to pick up the result. open the envelop, i don’t understand what is the result mean. i call to my friend who is doctor. she said the result is negative. my tear start to drop. this is the moment that i feel how to lose something in life. i always hope and believe that i will be success. however, it is not. i suddenly cry so hard in the bathroom alone. i try to claim myself, cause there are a lot of people still waiting for me get payment outside. i come out with no feeling. really want to work end soon, and please get out of my office. my husband come, i angry with him about work. he ask what’s happen? i hug him and cry. i said negative. he try to comfort me by saying it’s not our kid, so it’s won’t stay. I’m really sad. i e-mail to ask the doctor, cause i want to know the reason why. he said the embryo is grand AA. he make me believe that i will be success. it break my heart to know about the result. ok, let think like my husband said. if it’s us, it will stay. i wish to have a good news for my husband birthday. but i can’t do it 🙁

today is the day i have to transfer my egg. the transfer time is 1:30PM. this morning i spend the whole morning looking for the hotel to stay. first i decide to stay in hospital. after one night in hospital, i feel uncomfortable. i hurt all my body when i get up. I visit three hotels. 5 star, 4 star, and 3 star. finally i get the 3 star. hehe… 5 star is too expensive, and i cannot enjoy the facilities over there. 4 star the price is ok, but the staff is unfriendly, so i decide to get the 3 start around by the malls. so my aunt can walk around. she don’t have to stay in the hotel all day like me. the time is come. i have to pee before 1 PM after that i cannot pee until the process is finish. at 1: 30PM the nurse come to take me at my room. they give me to change the clothes, then it’s time to sit on wheelchair again. hehe…. they push me to other room which i have to put on the special trouser. then they bring me to the transfer room. i have to lay down half hour in order to wait for my doctor to come. the nurse check my belly 2 times make sure i have enough water in my belly. hehe… everything is good, expect i have to wait the doctor with nervous feeling. 2: 10 PM the nurse come and told me the doctor late another 20 min. it’s no choice to compliant anything. then she come back again told me the doctor is here, so she start prepare the place. now it’s time to transfer. the doctor come to the room. he told me that the result of my blood test yesterday is good. the nurse call my name to make sure the egg is mine. there is the TV show me how the nurse collect my egg. it’s so quick to transfer. i can say 2 minutes. after that they give me lay down. i am really want to pee, but i am afraid that it doesn’t good for me. so i try to force not to pee. i lay down on the bed until 3: 45PM, so i call the nurse, cause i am really want to pee. the nurse say that i can go now. they bring me to change the clothes and i am ready to go to the hotel. start from now on, i have to act everything slowly. better lay down on the bed, not to walk too much. eat and drink carefully. I hope i will success this time 🙂

actually i get 17 eggs on the collection day. after a few days, the doctor e-mail to me said that i have only 8 eggs. he ask is it very important to me to select the gender. actually, i want to select gender cause i think i don’t want too many kids. the doctor select gender cycle might risk alot of eggs as i don’t have many eggs. he would not recommend. so i decide to cancel the cycle. finally, i got only 5 eggs good 😉

It’s time to collect the eggs. No foods from 6 AM until finish. I change the clothes around 10 AM, and i go to sleep on the bed in one room. there are many girl in that room. they are the same like me. i feel so nervous, afraid and scare. i don’t now how to describe my feeling at that time. i am talking to one Thai girl who come to collect eggs as well. she is older than me and he age is the problem for her. she also the first time as well. we are share the feeling together. suddenly, the nurse come and said it’s time for her. they push her bed go into the other room. so i try to control the feeling of being nervous. a few minutes later, it’s my turn. they push me into a room which look like operation room in the movie. I feel super nervous. seeing all the stuffs around me and many nurses. my tear is drop down. i told one old nurse that i am  so nervous. she try to comfort me. i see my doctor come in. seeing his face, i just told him. i am so nervous and please help me. suddenly, i didn’t remember anything. when i wake up, i am in other room. I meet those girls who i meet before i am go into that room. it’s mean it is finish. i am feel so happy. hearing all the sound of people walking in and out, i am close my eyes and try to rest. i see one by one leaving the room. only me the last one, so i open my eyes. the nurse ask me is it ok? i said ok. the nurse give me something to eat (one cookie and one juice). then i left the room to see my translator. when we done with all the paper at the lobby of hospital. it’s time to go back airport. they give me sit on the wheelchair. this is my first time to sit on it. feeling old? or feeling easy? hehe…. i think i feel priority. lolz… when i am arrive home, my mom and my husband blame me not to ask someone accompany. hehe… if i know that scaring i would like to ask. hehe…

this is how people want to get kid? hehe…

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is it the last ? No… It’s checking time again. I hope it is big enough to collect the eggs. ok, this time go back home at take one shot at mid night

Fly alone again ;-( don’t know when it’s will finish. I wish the good result is coming soon. will i going to be a mommy soon? i feel so nervous 😀