After many stressful days at Thailand, and many careful days in cambodia. Finally, today is the result day. I went to do blood day in the morning. 4 PM i ask my cousin to pick up the result. open the envelop, i don’t understand what is the result mean. i call to my friend who is doctor. she said the result is negative. my tear start to drop. this is the moment that i feel how to lose something in life. i always hope and believe that i will be success. however, it is not. i suddenly cry so hard in the bathroom alone. i try to claim myself, cause there are a lot of people still waiting for me get payment outside. i come out with no feeling. really want to work end soon, and please get out of my office. my husband come, i angry with him about work. he ask what’s happen? i hug him and cry. i said negative. he try to comfort me by saying it’s not our kid, so it’s won’t stay. I’m really sad. i e-mail to ask the doctor, cause i want to know the reason why. he said the embryo is grand AA. he make me believe that i will be success. it break my heart to know about the result. ok, let think like my husband said. if it’s us, it will stay. i wish to have a good news for my husband birthday. but i can’t do it 🙁