i had a nightmare last night. i feel it is real, but it just a dream. i shout very loud. my voice made my husband scare. he also shout along as me. he woke up and hugged me. i felt claim down when i realize my husband sleep next to me. i cried, because i’m so afraid. my husband hugged me until i fall asleep. i think i usually have nightmare. sometimes i dream i get lose in the juggle, or a big cat jump on me. when is the scaring part, i always shout, and wake up. i think this week i’m going to buy some fruits and pray in my room.�
it is a raining day. we doesn’t want to go outside at all. my husband still want to bring me outside because i have been staying in the hotel from tuesday to saturday. he said i might get bore and want to see outside world. so we leave the hotel at 8.30 PM. we go to eat something at Hippo. this restaurant is�specialist with beef. this is the third time we go there since i was here. my husband can eat raw meat. when he order beef, he only gets 50% cook. for me i have to get 75% cook. last time, he order 50% cook for me as well, but i feel i’m afraid to eat. haha… this time i try fish. it is good.�
my birthday is coming soon. 3 hours and a half more. i don’t feel excited at all. i’m getting old one more year now. is there a red birthday party happen tomorrow? no i guess. haha… i feel so quiet here. only me and my husband. no family and friends. anyways, i’m a happy women. i know my husband try to do the best for me. he ask me everyday what do i want for birthday? haha… i also don’t know what do i want from him? haha… i think to be with him is everything for me.